Nature

2007-01-26T07:54:00.000+07:00

IN OUR SUMMER...OUR LAST SUMMER

Whys that were never questioned...
Whys that were never answered...
Have you ever wondered why?

Escape is never the answer
But does it always always lead us the right way?
Must we regret on time or future?
Time never fails to stop.
If time is immortal.
Then what about love?
and if love is timeless.
How about sympathy?

MUAAAAARrrrrrGGHHhhaaaaaAAAAaAAAAAAAAAaaaLLLLEOAIBALBLABLABLABALA

I'm tired of being tired, theres gotta be something wrong with this.
Perhaps a bullet? How about Gravity? How about Knives?

Slashed wounds were never deeper than the slash wounds of ignorance.
Cold and Flu were never more serious than Life.
Living is never more serious than slashed wounds.
and Life is never more serious than the slashed wounds of ignorance.

"sing without a reason, to never fall in love ( fall in love ) falll inn loooveeee aagggggaaaiiinnnnnn, to never falll inn loooveeeee aAAAgggaaaaiiinnnnnnn"

This post is linked to my life that is spent on time. I'll leave it up to you to guess how i imprint these words with my life impression.

1.0

2007-01-21T08:33:00.000+07:00

(add conjunction here) i've been studying here for like 4 months.. and man that felt like 2 years. things been going great... and well i've been working out again... trying to get more self achievements... and more.

living alone wih my siblings are damn hard.. my sis demands high standards while my oldest brother is just far too lazy to..... you know clean the big mess.. so who's gotta do the job? me.

how about badminton you might say.. i ******** failed the audition mannnn...
how about my class work? Thats good but. *add your fave accent and tone* thats justt not goooddd ennnoooouuuufffghh.

How about the biggest threat- anger
How about the least threat known to man-i'll say its the Earth.
How about the big bang theory the scientist thought of?- the biggest crap and logic known to man.
How about me?- damn tired

now.... just think about this last question... and find the never ending answer.

Are we truly innocent or guilty? - never will know
(and thats my answer)

"i've got another confession my friend, i'm no fool.... i am getting started on somewhere new."
" the best -- the best -- the best-- the best of yoooouuuu "

Don't worry guys this is just my so called 'art'. i enjoy doing these compositions and stuff, it reflects on my expressions and thoughts. this post here might and might not be linked to my everyday life.

New Post

2006-12-10T00:34:00.000+07:00

hey guys, i'm back again.. sorry for the late post. Well, i am actually not the kind of guy who blogs alot.

Anyways, what i'm concerned right now is my marks and academic results.. about love? well, i guess we all like love and its our perfect right so to love anyone you see, saying "ilove you" worths a billion bucks to anyone..try saying that to your parents.. or not your friends.. they will appreciate it :D I looovvee yyoouu. ;)

Anyways, more about me.. umm, basicly i've just been working out these days and the result? i've got a bigger arm and chest and cycling actually helps to increase my muscle mass on my thighs and calf.

oh, and my tests? notbad.. i guess i would get good marks.. probably around 75 or 80. anyways, wish me luck! haha :D

Last of all, good luck and bomb drugs;)

Updating guys

2006-11-02T05:10:00.000+07:00

One hell of an exercise, geez.
Did about 60 push-ups beacuse our team lost the race.
plus 20 sit-ups for not shooting the ball into the hoop at least 1 in 5 times.
and 30 crunches and 50 push-ups again at home to total it to
110 push-ups and 50 sit-ups.

I would rather skate for 30 mintues non stop than that.. screw the trainer.. nah.. just kidding.. XD.

Achievements: For buying the inline skates in Singapore without permission from my mum ( this leads to significant progress in my stamina and speed.)
- Defenitely failure ( Leads me to success at most times. )
- For loving sports,arts,english and science. ( Makes me wanna learn more. )
- Last of all, my loving parents for putting me here to study. ( Lead to determination at most times)

Guess thats all for me updates. till then goodbye and bomb drugs;)

Something is terribly wrong

2006-10-28T10:39:00.000+07:00

Well, what is the world is coming up to these days? well, its not them its me.
blah.. hahhaha i know, its like the world owes me a living syndrome.. and i don't want that syndrome anyway.

well, i'm having a serious headache for three days now... having a terrribllleeeee failing streak on my tests.. and i tell you what.. i need to score better than this.. seriously, this is rubbish, i got 37 marks on maths.. and english. its an F.

Sometimes, i just wonder why i have even come here to study.. i'm always distracted by people, i get a little sad at times.. but you know.. stop it, its not going to work out this way, i have to change my habits.

Whenever i look at people who scores 100 marks for tests.. it kinda makes me feel disoriented.. whenever i see myself as an idiot or a jerk.. it makes me feel like i'm crazy and stupid..

Well, some people just never understood but i don't blame them.. its my responsibility to change my own life right? Its not the society that owes me.. its i who is killing me and owing myself lots of happiness..

I guess i better change myself right now.. i really don't know why i'm feeling like this right now.. i don't wanna fall back again.. its like starting my life from scratch. I need to do something about this.

Way to go kid. you have done yourself a little too many bad deeds and bad marks. Its gonna bite you back again.. woo hoo nice job.. how i hate myself. Well, how nice it would be to just fail myself and just.. fall, ending all sufferings right? but i know.. i just got to stay strong.

New update

2006-10-14T11:59:00.000+07:00

First of all.. errruhhmmm..... hope i didn't mess up anything but.. remember the story i made last 4 to 5 months? those are old.. scrap them off.. offfff!

hmm so you might be asking me what i'm gonna write about today so here it goes ( without further delay ) -- You guys might wanna say that i am an amateur, but whatever right? i'm getting experience here dude. :P

Before you start: i'm not gonna write stories that you see on books, i'll just write them like a conversation and descriptions of course. No episodes.. i don't even know whether the story wil even end.. and according to my style. every beginning, sometimes have an ending.

"seems like the town is dead already. hmph! who cares about my old man, he is gullible, stupid.. can't believe it. Now, i'm broke and lonely, damn him."

Daniel saw two cars zooming by him like a train when he was shot. He curled up like a ball and began to bleed profusely.

So, he died... but do you actually really think hes dead? no one knows.. only one person knows. the people covered up the whole thing. he was shot by a federal government officer, but no one believed Dannsi. That night, no witnesses saw the accident. No one, only one officer was sent there to investigate... but why?

12:00 PM

By this time. the media had already broadcast to the public about the incident. Police officers gradually lost hope on finding the culprit. Danni said to the officer that a black VIP car went past him and shot him through the window; which was true and the officer have to believe her.. of course he reluctantly wrote it down on the notepad.

10:00 PM

Danni, still confused and sad about the death of her brother, she stayed at homed with her parents. her mum and dad could only mourn and cry.

Danni: Do you think there is a way to find the culprit mum?
Mum: No one knows for sure. * sighed heavily and stood up, walking to the kitchen *
Danni: There is got to be a way. ( she said to herself )

8:00 AM

Danni seeks out to find the culprit, armed with only with her soul. she ran past the dark alleyway and into the town where she asked the residence for help in finding the killer. A stranger walked towards her and smirked.

Wanna find out? Stay tune for the next chapter.

How long was it?

2006-10-08T13:20:00.000+07:00

How long was it guys?

How long did i not update this page..?

How long did i not feel the same way again like last time?

5 months.. and it felt like 1 year...

i have to admit.. i do change... it feels like.. i am one year older every two months...

it feels like i am 15 but i'm just 14

and whoooooo cares? no one cares..
thats why its important to change your way of thinking..
and you know what?? from now on.. just forget what i type about myself for the previous post that i posted.

right now.. i am gonna be a better man.. i am gonna be stronger each day.. i have to face th reality cos its .... its just the way it was meant to be.
ok ok
i will stoop here..

ANYWAYS GUYS.. whats up? enough of me talking about craps..hahhaha
i've not updated this page for months.. and i am updaying right now.
i won't say much cos.. i am in an ok mood.. sometimes theres up and downs..

and you got to accept it. I'm tired of wasting life dwelling
from now on. i am gonna move on... try my best to be the best of me... cos i wold not care what people say of me.. but its me.. and any habits i have.. i would have to throw it away.. and i am gonna be what i am suppose to be..

Yuck.. er.r... ok well trhose are true words that i am gonna promise myself... one way or another.. i just kinda.. forget what i usually said to myself
and we're all humans after all... we've made mistakes.. and we are suppose to correct them... right?

well well... i am gonna end now.. good luck and bomb drugs ;)

F***!!!!

2006-06-23T20:14:00.000+07:00

I wanna have the same last dream again, the one where I wake up and I'm alive. Just as the four walls close me within, my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight. I'm the first to know, my dearest friends.

ok ok.. its just sentences taken from a lyric.Well, life sometimes does not go the way you like or wanted. but god will always lead you to the correct path even if its horrible or not.

today my parents are away to indonesia. trust me, it sucks to be alone at home. i am really confused with life.

When i smile.. it doesn't mean i frown right? and why do people frown?
its always the other F******** round right?

I have friends who is a genius but his brain is still like a 10 year old. i got friends who loves to have fun but is a total wierdo sometimes.

But some people are just so F********** sooo immensely irritating. i think really need a buddy here or something before i die with my lips and eyes closed.
who cares if i everyone is unique including me.. what sort of things do we get in the end? sluts? no? then what?
I just don't get it. what the F*** is going on.

F*** i just don't get what i really am! fine. i am soooo soooo soooooooo tired of people braggggggiing about this and that. F*** cares.

by the way.. who actually reads the bible.. i just don;t get it.. i don;t really get it.. some are pretty much nonsense.. some are logical. but i don;t get it in the end do i?

F***! i don't know anything. I don't care if i speak two languages or one, or this person is smarter or more taller or bigger whatever it is. only F*** cares.

Damn...... who actually lives in this world? who even enjoy it... who says taht the world has alot of things to offer.. yea, bad offers and bad discounts.

What happended to my skating skills???? what happened to my hockey skills??? the're F******** gone! whats wrong with me? F***? ARRGH F*** it is.

Passion

2006-05-15T20:42:00.000+07:00

Whats your passion? I don't think i have any passion for anything except for inline skating and ice hockey, inline hockey goaltender... Although i had never tried it before. i am so friggin ready to be one.

Whose good at goaltending ? I have watched thousands of goalminders in NHL saving tonnes of shots.. and freezing bullet pucks on the ice. And i have visions of becoming a pro goaltender.... but can i be one? I am in a dilemma... my sis told me to be the player skating on the ice, not on the crease. I guess i have to follow my heart.

tomorrow is the day i get the results for my exams. Not sure how much pride i will get in the end.. i guess only time will tell. Too much ego and getting too cocky is not the way, I have been provoked many times and i wish i could just be out of the confrontation.

I will be a goaltender.. i must be one. Sigh... i can't just keep slacking around and you know, getting stucked between these two. In the end, i will have to choose my decision., i really hope the decision i made was right.. cos its gonna be what my future will be.

Wish me luck ya?

time to unwind and play your eyes out.

2006-05-12T08:12:00.000+07:00

HEY GUYS. my exams are finally over and i get to play my stuff..... well yea.. play. I am gonna play my brains out i guess. and probably go skating, idon't know. But i am in a bad mood sometimes so.. don't mind me if i raise my voice a little. AND SADLY, VANCOUVER CANUCKS ARE NOT IN THE PLAYOFFS. damn it!

Never mind about that... hope they will do better next season... and i think the big loss was because of cloutier's injury... ARRHHH and alex auld had to take over him... kinda sad isn't? hes not a proffesional yet.. so, had to forgive him for that.

And by the way, is there even any shop that sells inline hockey equipments here???? and my wheels are wearing off.... damn it. hmm is there any way to practice hockey? hope so..once i got those equipments i will be training daily... i swear to god i will..

Oh. is there any inline hockey enthusiasts or inline skating enthusiasts in singapore?

Confession

2006-04-10T18:22:00.000+07:00

Ok. well, heres what iam gonna say. and its all about confessing. my brain is totally bombarded by doubts and frustration. so hear me out ok? please?

First of all, i want to say that i really miss my parents really badly. being alone for two weeks is not pleasant nor nice. I don't know why but whenever my parents are here with me. i will get irritated easily and get fired up easily when my mum nags or something. Heck. what the hell is wrong with me?

Secondly, i have tolerated my classmates for a long long time and i totally feel like bombing them to smitherens. i am fucking tired of bias and prejudice or anything. lets make this clear, i am not being bullied or anything, i am just fucking tired and am tolerating your damn verbal assaults. One day, i might just slice up their heads and sell them off to sushi bars.

Thirdly, my lungs and brain is exhausted of telling my parents how hard it is to get high marks for exams. its not easy, my life is not as smooth as my brother or sister. i have many enemies and vermins to hate that its uncountable and impossible to control. My brain is cloudy enough, you don't need to make it even worse.

Last of all, dude... seriously, i don;t know whether this is relevant but..... i don;t get what the priest is trying to say. i am not convinced. I rather lead my life like a human, i am getting tired of those stuff and i rather belive in myself. i find that life is nothing, why keep it? it totally sucks. tell me, after those hard work. what do i get? nothing. i get nothing of it, nobody believes me.
I know that i suck in chinese and i can';t speak much indonesian. only english. but i care. i just don;t want to learn chinese anymore and focus on my two langauges. i am getting tired of this. I know i am frail. so shut the hell up and by the way..... if there is a way to kill myself in nanoseconds and painlessly.... tell me.

Story time!

2006-02-23T20:56:00.000+07:00

Dude, i tried writting stories but i couldn't make it. it sucks, right now. its gonna be so called the 'first' story i am gonna make,it will get boring, and please forgive me as its my first,besides. i may have grammatical mistakes or anything. Probably will take about three entries to complete. I am solely responsible for spelling mistakes so. PLEASE forgive me if i really spelled it out wrongly, i am reliable for correcting mistakes, and i will try to ask my friends and perhaps my brother to check it. And edit it accordingly.

9:00 A.m.

It was the second day of the job. Grad couldn't help waiting for his Chief to arrive in the room. Looks like the meeting is delayed.

Too many incidents had occured in the city, the police is still seeking clues that the culprit leave. Witnesses says that the victim was stabbed three times to the heart and one near the groin. Sadly, the culprit is still at large. Some other victims that was found dead in the past few weeks were mostly males and there seemed to be a pattern to it.

Finally the chief arrived, giving an apologetic look. he sat down and put down his stack of files before adressing to the recruits. " First of all, i would like to say a job well done to those new recruits that had captured the 3rd most wanted men in this city. "

There was a pause." Now, for the bad news. I have recieved new reports of missing students in the outskirts of this city. There isn't much important information on it. So i would like to give the priviledge to the captain, John, the chance to take care of the new recruits. John, you and your team will patrol around the city and ask for clues. got it? "

John nodded and smiled. " All of you are dissmissed " said the chief.

" I will take over for now. But, i suggest that you guys should take a short break, probably around 5 min and head for the meeting room next to the locker room. its more private there. " He adjusted his glasses before exiting the room.

" Whats up with the captain, like hes got concussion or something. " Jeth said. Everyone laughed and exited the room quickly. Grad was the last one to leave and decided to head for the vending machine before going to his next destination.

There you go.. one chapter ended and... more will be coming up.Hope its cool enough. stay tuned to find out more ;)

Unlucky moments

2006-02-21T19:13:00.000+07:00

Hey guys, its tuesday night here. For some reason, Every tuesday will be a hell day for me. AS expected, it really did happened today including on mondays. Guess i will invite my friends on saturdays to relive my friggin worries.

On monday, i accidentally threw a marker pen high up in the air and reflected off the ceiling fan and in a nanosecond, it ricochet on and out the window. cool huh? i laughed almost immediately.. hahahha.. you should have seen the expression on my friend's face. And hell, it was a spinning fan. Fortunately, it didn't hit anyone, cos the velocity is incredible,it will kill anyone in the way. The marker is defenitely history.

And today, i had to sat beside a psychotic friend and, what do you know? it really distracted me. Perhaps he should eat some aspirin to relive himself or something.

Sigh, i can't be the Alpha male. I ran 5 rounds non stop in the open carpark today, makes me fall off my feet.
no blisters or anything, and perhaps learning new tricks with the inline skates too early causes long term injuries to your commitment. What a lucky day..........

I've got two tests coming up this week. Adding to the pressure, my kitchen is invaded my ants recently, i am still thinking of a way to stop these pests from coming near my friggin sink!

HELLOOOO anybody there? i am getting lonely here. three days with my parents past few days aren't enough, i just wanna escape away from this island. Lets hope everythings alright. And lastly i wanna dedicate a song "Work" by jimmy eat world to all of my friends EXCLUDING that psycho and that sickoe who thinks hes an Ox.

And just one more thing. " YOU ****** " to my classmates. woo hoo excluding that indian friend of mine. other than that. you can fuck yourself. ( sorry for being such a ..... err. unorthodox? )

Went far beyond the board ( i need help )

2006-02-15T20:38:00.000+07:00

Hmm, can i actually kill myself? i was tempted so. Maybe i should have, i regreted that i didn't make it happen. Maybe, i am not me. Maybe..

Maybe i am not part of my family, i told you before many times that i am the black sheep of the family, sighs... i share nothing in common from my parents, my looks, my personality. I was not myself, when others speak better than me in chinese and in indonesian. i will get a little embarrased, and sometimes i just go crazy, nothing was helping.

I hate chinese language, i have no interest in it at all. I just wanted to study english and indonesian instead. but somehow, my mum wouldn't let me. I wasn't as humorous and as smart as my relatives. I jsut hated being teased at for some reason. i don't know why, perhaps it was from my enemies. i hated all my friends in school except for some.

If i have the chance to.. i might as well bomb this whole world up, i am really confused. i am in a dilemma.Once, i had all my hatred in piled up on my head, i totally felt like killing my friends and even myself. But after hours, i feel a sense of guilt. i had to choose one destiny, one and only one way. But i end up in between these two. guilt and hatred.

I WANNA STOP FUCKING PLAYING this FUCKING TUG OF WAR.

Eventually, i know that i might be ending up in jail or something if i let me hatred control and betray my feelings. I love my family and siblings but i figured out that i was the extra piece of jigsaw puzzle in the frame, what is happening to me?! If i ever betray myself and hurt my friends. i will be dead, i was just tempted and i really felt this hatred inside me, it just keep boiling and cool off at a certain speed.

Whatever is happening to me, i know that i might kill myself if i have the chance to, what am i contributing to Earth anyway. I won't be an asset to this friggin world and i might as well end up in my own world.

Valentine's Day

2006-02-13T19:29:00.000+07:00

Hey guys, valentine's day is tomorrow guys. Wish you all the best ad don't forget to send flowers and chocolates to your love ones. For those lovebirds, cmon, just send flowers and appreciation and passionate love ;)

by the way. just wanna dedicate a song " sweetness " by jimmy eat world to all my families and friends. especially francis and to my neighbour who helped me a bunch including one of my teacher who showed my enemy how to appreciate friends ;)

Anyways, i miss you mum and dad, you guys are like at your hometown for like months....

To the dogs in the streets barking away at night, stay cool and don't leave your waste on the grass.To the endangered species, stay strong.

For me, well i don't have a girlfriend or even a close friend or anything but.. hey maybe i should send chocolates to teachers huh? or perhaps even to animals. i kinda miss the stray cat that i see every week last year. hahaa kidding ya. but its lonely not to have someone close huh? haha.

And to francis, you can find girls next time dude, don't get really desperate here. ;) hahaha nah.. just messing with ya.

And to all of you guys reading.Happy valentine's day and good night. And to mum and dad and my brother and sister, i am working hard and i promise that i can do a curb jump on the inline skates and i will accomplish my dream to be a pro skater.

Not my day

2006-02-12T17:40:00.000+07:00

Hey guys.Its just not my day, trust me. I got like tons of problems not solve and it willl never leave my mind alone. I just wanna pray.

Guess what. i lost my wallet that came along with my EZ link card. I am getting worried by the minute. It was obvious that someone took it, i could only pray that no one had taken advantage of it. I don't wanna be framed or anything. God... i should have been more careful. Perhaps it was really my fault, i have been doing something bad perhaps.. i don't know. Somehow, i had a feeling of hope.

I know this might sound a little disturbing but, i actually hated god. Relax, it was last two weeks. I was just very pissed off at my friends. i hated my friends, school. I even hate myself for not being myself lately. Pathetic eh? Someday, i could actually kill myself. School sucks, life sucks, i am the black sheep of my family.
I don't speak chinese much while my siblings are fluent with it. It just makes me really sad. Maybe i should have killed myself last year when i was rejected. damn, you won't know how it feel to be really lonely.

I miss my parents, my whole family. I am living alone in this damn apartment and am the only soul that lives in this unit.I miss my family, i wanna cry. I just want to go to vancouver and live with my siblings.

ARRRGGHHHh

2006-02-05T18:47:00.000+07:00

Don't get my title? it means that i am going insane. Thinking of loneliness makes me sick. Experiencing it is even worse, i just feel really down into the fucking core. i have spend like months living alone and playing PS2 which kills me and computer games along with bunch of monkey in school. what could go any worse? well i bet that my time will soon end! ARRGHH cmon.

Anybody with PS2 is as happy as a king. WRONG, dude. I am like totally shitting myself these days.Watching TV alone, Playing alone, Studying alone. I MIGHT AS WELL DIE. I realise how important it is to have our families and even siblings, reminiscing the times. Damn, this could have been avoided if that DAMN FUCKING INTERVIEWER didn't reject me. Damn bias and racist. how i wish i could kill her right now.

Drinking soda water didn't help. i am dying of loneliness.. helllloooo? this is not like some kind of land with only junyards and graveyards and empty houses. Is there anybody who is not some kind of monkey or retards? Fuck it. I am so pissed off because of those bastards and my life. waht the hell is life? How fucking bias are these people are!? If i have the chance before i take my last breath, i will do a spin kick to the bastards.

Anyways.. sigh.. i just can't forget the reunion party i had last week during chinese new year. it was great, thanks alot you cousins and uhh.. those nice relatives.

Fuck bias and prejudice.

Sorry for the coarse language but i can't help it. and cheers.

Owwhhoowwh oowwhhoowhh

2006-01-20T22:01:00.000+07:00

I am losing my baby.. i am losing my favourite game...... OWwwwhhoowhh owhhoowhh oowwhhoowhh ooowwhhhooowhhh.. ( taken from 'my favourite game' -- The Cardigans )

Hey guys.. i know, its been damn long time since i blogged an entry, tahts the reason why i am here. =D. What can i say? its been a boring day. its strange to see my life in a shadow and in the darkness like this. its practically boring and dark out here.... nah.. kidding.

Yay! i won 6 matches in a row. i was on a hot streak in the NHL 05 game. Yee haw, i beat chicago 13-0. the difficulty is easy ( not begginers ) which is harder... actually. for some reason. the CPU is playing dumb today.

And more on game topic, ( sorry. i know you guys are yawning ) Who plays Resident Evil 4? anyways. its cool. i bought it.. i palyed it everyday for 4 hours. its addictive, and if teachers say that its our fault.. blame it on the game :P. By the way guys. Kick ganados then using bullets to do the finishing moves.

How boring is my day? DAMN boring. My com got hacked by spyware. and the teachers sucks. slack. most of them are too ordinary. their teaching is tooo abysmal.. well. not really but.. its more of 'follow what i say' teaching techniques. so i decided to do self study. I was called a pig for a millionth time already in school. still mercilessly calling me pig. ( that damn idiot jerk ) just makes me feel like snapping his neck in school.

Looks like i am gonna end here. and by the way.. stay cool and don't do drugs.
Those of you who likes oowwh owhh. listen to ' my favourite game' -- The Cardigans. the song rocks.

Jelousy is a feeling that betrays your feeling

2005-12-17T03:23:00.000+07:00

Hey, guys. this entry is self explanatory. you defenitely know what i am gonna talk about. so enjoy yourself. and d-o- n-o-t do a curb jump on a rollerblade if you are a begginer. trust me.

Take back what you say--take back waht you say-- *cut off *

Dude. today i just played bloody roar 2 and won only 11 matches.. maybe i need a checkup ;P
Ok peeps, i know as a 13 year old kid. you will get crushes and then you know.. when that girl got a new boyfriend or boy.. or met a new boy. you get jelous, cmon dudes. face it. i am sure you got jelous before.

So, what i advice you guys is to stay cool. don't panic and show jelous or red face. trust me it will spoil your feelings. you have to be straight and conscious about what you are gonna say and how to react. i mean, its all got to do with your originality. don't plan, what i mean is really really plan. like. for example, ( plan freaks do this i guess ;P )

1. walk 2 feet inf front of that new mucho guy
2. tell him how mucho he is/ shake hands
3. etc.

Well. what can i say.. this kind of plan will RUIN your life.. you got to be original. stay cool. don't go all red face. and cmon. as teenagers. we are. ahem suppose to study right? so perhaps you guys should contribute your 70% of hard work to studies.. unless you are. a plan freak. or playboy which i don't think so.

And do not let your jelous face control your emotions. stay pink. its ok to get a min of hot red face.

third thing is. jelous sometimes got to do with work. studies.. lets say kid A got 100 for his maths. and you start going all red face. and suddenly you punch him in the nose. ok well. this situation is because you are not fighting with jelousy. or sometimes you do bad things to him. cmon we are humans. we are not perfect. do NOT ok? do not compete. go at your own pace. if you go at your original and your OWN pace. you are playing man. i can assure you that.

Theres another thing. try not to think about anger. be cool. stay cool. and try to brush off that feelings of jelous. always tell yourself that you are now at a comfortable pace or state.

the last thing is. if you get jelous. things WON'T go your way. trust me, i got so jelous one time. that i ruin my whole life, i mean not life just screwed up a situation. you will get what i mean if you are me on that day.

Tree Condominium

2005-11-30T01:32:00.000+07:00

Whats up? ok this time. i amgoing to continue on th story.. on the uhh,.. first two entries.. uh.h.. think i got an idea this time round.... yea... alright... ok well here it goes

9:00 A.M.

hmm.... looks like today was a snowy day... uhh. well yea.. security helped out to shovel the snow.
people in the resident are.. uhh.. well tired... and rather bored today.... i only see about two animals walking out of their units... well uhh.. some went out to play with snow.. and.. theres nothing more... i guess today was not the way we wanted to be. Cmon.. lets go... our daily patrol is just about.... 10 minutes later...

9:1o A.M.

hmm.... hey.. lets talk to one of our residents..
oh.. uhh hi Mr Seagull.
Resident: look.. i ain't go anymore time.. i need to go now..
Me: give us 5 minutes ok?
Resident: waht is it?
Me: you got any suggestion about our carpark? cos its not sheltered you know?
Resident: nah... its ok.. i'm a bird you know? i fly.. i don't ride on a wooden skate or some big and heavy log..
Me: alright.. i think i get what you mean, i was just-
Resident: alright.. i got no more time left.. i need to go now...alright? ask me questions later...

Sigh.. ok well uhhh.. looks like we got trouble on that.. we talked to Mr squirrel just now... and well.. he told me that he had to shovel about 20cm of snow....bobby.. i think we better go back..
lets rest..

8:00 P.M.

oh.. bob! we got company! call for backup.. we got really really.. a gigantic Spider.. i mean its big. seriously! cmon.. ohh..wait! they are customers. i mean.. ohh.. spider.. you shouldn't show that fangs.. it really scares us.. youknow? alright.. go to B2 and... uh.. there you go.. yea.. tahts it Mr, yea.. yea.. ok.. uh ye.a ok bye now..

11:00 P.M.

Alright.. jesus.. i think today was... not exciting.. look...its winter now.. so bear with it.. its gonna get boring each day... we got nothing to do... and... *yawn*... lets sleep...

Sorry, i know that this entry was one of the worst. But you know? i only got a small idea.. not a big one... but hey, at least i have done it. right? *Nervous laugh* alright.... uhh, forgive me yea?

british accent Cmon its good :P * stop trying to get the right note *

2005-11-27T12:44:00.000+07:00

Hey guys... its been a while uhh.. well good thing is.. i am back.. so enjoy my net entry.. its just about my life again.. maybe i wanna continue the story about the uhh... tree houise ( remember? the first two entries? ) well.. thats maybe next two entries or so... or maybe the next entry

*shouts* "CAUSE YOU DON"T CARE ( inaudible chatter ) " ahem. alright.. i am back. so wahts up?
Just now.. uhh.. i shot the ball over a.. uhh... the basketball net.. and bounce over the fence and into a grass patch.,. and thats my neighbour's backyard *SCREAMS* wait.. kits YIKES!! ok. well nah.. its ok.. left a note to tell my neighbour to just throw the ball over the fence and into the backyard.. of course.. my backyard :P

hands are freezing cold here... not only that... i got to meet some psychotic crows near my house. i love em' just keep shouting birds :D

OMG i wanna buy a VAncouver canucks JERSEY SHIRT!! and then my parents told me that it isn't worth it. CMON.. its got vancouver smell right? ki mean cmon.. its antique you can't get it in singapore or indonesia.. or china. its made in canada...
wait. by the way... Canucks is best! nah... i am not sure..hahaha they aren't the best... but one ofthe best.. well.. thats what i think... :P and.. their shirt is not like... uhh.... well ahem "Ooomph" kinda think.. well uhh.. what i mean is.. its doesn't tear easily..

*shouts* " AND EVERBODYS GOING CRAZZZYYYYY * music stops *

ok well.... everybody is Going (bleep)

ok bye guys.. and mei.. uhh.. what? i mean.. wait.. i mean.. ok well good luck.. i mean mei.. uhh.. well..

ok ok i wil stop.. mei.. hmm its ok i mean if you didn't reply much.. i appreciate more than enough i guess.. haha.. at least yo could go online
( i think )
And don't stress yourself up too much ya? and take good care of your parents and uhh brothers and sisters.. and... try not to worry to much ya? and

anybody who is reading this...

rock on.. and don't stop there.. jsut keep walking.. never stop walking to the uhh... flow? yea..
even if something happened to you.. or hurt you.. just keep enduring it ya? good luck

and bomb drugs ;)

*shouts* " AND EVERYBODYS GOING *music got cut off* CRAZY "
In case tyou think i am crazy.. uhh.. the titles thdre... and its by simple plan.. :P

Flashbacks

2005-11-19T12:24:00.000+07:00

Message Intro / into This..

2005-11-11T15:40:00.000+07:00

No explixit words... or content.. rated (E)

This entry is mostly or you can say dedicated for my friend 'Meiliana' so you can choose to see this.. but if you think this is boring... sad to say... i can't do anything for you.. but i rate it 70% nice.. thats what i peronally think.. so.. if you come and say to me and say " i think your entry sucks! " i can't help you.. its just my blog :D... ok.. well.. anyways.. ok.. here it comes..

Ok guys.. you should know who i amrefering to.. ok anyways.. i saw your blog lately.. and one of your friend asked a question... ( why is theere bombing and stuff liek that in indonesia ) well.. i am an indonesian.. so i preety know much.. and i ever.. once felt anger.. and hatred.. just the same as those terrorist.. the reason.. i only know.. or.. what i mostly think is... because they are hated... they have no money.. or they got no destiny.. no motivation.... but the most likely reason is.. because.. tehy are hated... and they are seeking revenge for the caucasion... OR want to kill christians... why? cos.. some people there in the west sumatra.. are... you can say.. fanatic..( no offence to my countrymen )

ok.. its defenitely got to be one of that answers ' crystal ' ( the friend of mei, i am not sure whether its her real name or nickname.. whatever it is.. i think mei should know ) ok.. well. the thing is... people in other countried may not know why.. because they did not grow up here.. and know what is actually happebneing... trust me... if you don;t know the answer.. its because you did not think out of the box... think deeply...branstorm... get the facts... think of questions and answer it... and eventually you should get the answer.... its like.. searchig for a treasure in the middle of the core..

thats all i guess.... and once again.. sorry if its rather boring... for some of those who aren't interested... well.. what can i say? this entry is as dedicated...
Till then.. good luck.. and always remember.. say no to drugs.. or you can bomb them all ;) XD

EA Sports (It;s in the game)

2005-10-19T19:29:00.000+07:00

Warning:(Uncencored)

"Fool the world but you can't fool me" i love this phrase which was taken from a lyrics.. dude.. i have been listening to this song since this evening.. anyways.. hey.. this time the blog i am writting is gonna be about my life... same life.. and yet again... a boring and obviously a bad one for me.. why? because of some people who are bias and those who prejudice... other people like me... ya.. thats true... anyways here it goes Peeeeeeppppss.... WAIT WAIT... and the lyrics from the title 'Fool the world' sounds great? yea.. well not for you uhh you you and you.. nah.. joking...... haha.. have a nice day!

Hey hey.. guys whats up? exams are friggin' over.. now its left with some personal problems.. anyway life in school sucks.. life at home sucks too... well maybe everywhere we go sucks totally.. lets die.. =P haha...err forgive me.. i think i must have taken too much aspirins.. ooppss.. hahaha ok ok joking.. err.. well lets continue...

Anybody play NHL 05? well i do, i just bought it.. didn't feel like buying the 06 due to the high price.. i love nashville Predators.. hehe.. they rocks man... just take a look how they do the slap shot and the wrist shot... woo hoo.. one shot and it went in.... anaheim? err i know they are the best.. but hey.. i think nashville is the best among the NHL team....

guys... i wanna meet staind... err i wanna get their autograph... err.. wait.. what the? in america? whoa thats far.. err.. sigh.. guess they aren't going to Indo to do the autograph session.. righT? i mean cmon... i don't think they ever step here before... =( errr.... we want some kind of autograph here....... sigh.... i know..... i am talkin crap... bullshiting/goatshitting.... anyways i got nothing to say.. heres the lyrics for 'fool the world' by Hazen Street

I've been to many places
I've seen many faces
Soft and hard, battle scared
I've seen prison bars
Not for long, but long enough to write this song
Right or wrong, I'm a product of a battle zone

Lower East Side where it's not pretty
I see many talking, but can they really walk it?
On the west side they show no pity
See you walking around you're bound by only fantasies
Thinking your hard, you know that's not reality
We all see, we know you're just a wannabe so fool the world but you can't fool me

In my home, alone, and on the streets
I've seen beefs and walked with heat
What does it all mean to me?
Not a thing, if i dont live to write and sing
About 'the life', about strife, about everything

Lower East Side where it's not pretty
I see many talking, but can they really walk it?
On the west side they show no pity
See you walking around you're bound by only fantasies
Thinking your hard, you know that's not reality
We all see, we know you're just a wannabe so fool the world but you can't fool me

I've seen you come and go, all you tough guy clones
When will you leave it alone?
I've seen you come and go, all you tough guy clones
You're all from front street
You better keep it moving kid you dont know what you're doing here

Lower East Side where it's not pretty
I see many talking, but can they really walk it?
On the west side they show no pity
See you walking around you're bound by only fantasies
Thinking your hard, you know that's not reality
We all see, we know you're just a wannabe so fool the world but you can't fool me

TAKEN FROM WWW.LYRICSSONE.NET.. ERRRRR NOT COPYRIGHTED.. OMG BUT ITS OK RIGHT? I JUST WANNA BORROW IT =D HEHE...

Fool the world but you can't fool me

2005-09-30T16:56:00.000+07:00

Hi... I'm back.. You guys must be wondering why i sent another post today when i already posted one yesterday... well its because today.. something happened.. you know? problems.. sigh...

Today in school.. most of my teachers was not in school... so they sent another teacher to take over the period today..... it didn't seemt cool.... even though two teachers didn't came today.. it was a chaos.. i mean real chaos...

There is this giant guy in my class... some of my friends called him 'cacing' well... there is a reasons why we called him that.... well it is that it ryhmes with the word 'Jia Jun'... if we say jia jun fast... it will sounds like 'cacing' and by the way.. 'cacing' in indonesia language means worm.....

ok anyways... he is like some kind of gangster really.... well he always snatch my paper.. and copied it down on his paper... dude.. imean could he do the work himself? well i am not sure.. i guess hes just a bit...... mad? i don't know... and on thursday.. he beg... oh. wait. its not "beg" its "ordered" my friend... to do the 350 words essay on Charlotte's Web.. ok its essay.. i mean hes like.... relaxing while my poor friend does the work for him.... i just hope that one day he will change... hes real mad isn't he? how i wish i could punch him straight into the nose...

ohh yea.. another thing.. you guys should know what is lacquer..... its like a liquid... ok anyways.. on thursday... i used that lacquer in the workshop... ok well my instructor added it with thinner... and so i lacquer my wooden workpieces....

Wait.. it isn't over yet... today... my friends told me that this guy.. my friend ( i guess i will leave him anynomous in case he comes and bash me up =P ) He licked.. wait don't get me wrong here.... LICKED his hand which was.... err... dirtied by lacquer.. and thinner... dude... he licked his hand completely... i heard that he licked more than three times.. ok. maybe he went to hospital today... because he didn't appeared on school today... whatever it is..... thats a good lesson for him.... he always bully people.. well yea bully.. and then neglect...

*yawns* well... err... its kinda boring... but i am slacking here..... exams are around the corner but i guess i will revise tomorrow.... till then.. good luck and bomb drugs ;)

2005-09-19T20:33:00.000+07:00

Warning: Blog (Uncencored)

Well well well..... this is the blog of the day... Nature site has been build... and it seems its back to our own life... seems that everything now... is soo fucked up.. seriously.. so, maybe i should understand the feelings and the ... sorrows my friend are going through... well yea, i maybe like those idiots to you people but i aren't.. people sometimes got to understand a bit.. you know?

Well today.... lets talk about songs to cheer you guys up ok? well heres the song of the uhh.. my FAVOURITE 14 Shades Of Grey the titles called 'So Far Away' enjoy it guys.. ;)

this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
'cause i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before

somebody shake me 'cause i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]

i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me

[chorus]

Well how was the lyris guys? great?

Nature Rock Island.... hehe... ok ok alright i will stop here man... wait... its copyright right? well who cares... i am just typing down the lyrics anyways =P its no big deal..... same thing like jaywalking..HAHa... ok well good night and bomb drugs ;) signing off.......BOOM =P

Good news...... Lots of customers in here! COME QUICK!

2005-09-06T10:13:00.000+07:00

Whoa!! We've got lots of customers... HURRY PEOPLE! HURRY!!

Hmm... there is a good news.. it seems that the engineers just need one day to complete the enhancement... so. in the meantime we've got some serious customers buying this new site... some are cheap while those bigger ones are more expensive.. so.. make up your mind animals! Today we are gonna look at those customers... lets see.. we got Mr squirrell here... ok all set to go..... ready...NOW!!

8:00 A.M. (Day after the completion)

Okay peeps.. looks like we are busy.. can't talk much... looks like we got the squirell here... he just wants to buy section A, near the beach over there.... but he can't make up his mind... " i told you already... the price is.... 500 grams of ore... 200 grams of leaves and 200 grams of sulphur.... no less no more....." looks like hes fussy.. but never mind guess theres more customers.. i need you and you to handle it.

10 Hours Later

hmm most of the tree houses are sold.... its an complex... and its room of space is limited... we got only three more units to sell on Section B.....Section A is full.....5 more units on Section C and 6 more units on Section D ( Which is the most expensive due to large space and because its just beside the gym and swimming pool ) Ok looks like Mr Frog is here..... he wants to buy a unit on Section D!!! great...."sir... the cost is 1kg of ore......2kg of leaves.....1500 grams of sulphur...... 3500grams of wood and 4kg of sand...... is it a deal Mr Frog?" well he said YES!! thats great... whoa..ok.. hehe good luck you guys out there.... HURRY QUICK we still got units to be sold!

8:00A.m. ( the next day )

We still got some units to be sold... though little... today is the last day we are going to sell these units..... we are gonna give those remaining units for those who are in in need of help...... hmm our last customer i guess... ok.. so.. " Mr Raccoon... how may i assist you?" hmm it seems hes buying one unit on Section C...." so its... 1kg of ore.... 1500 grams of sulphur....AND 6kg of sand OR 2.5kg of sulphur....2kg of leaves.......and so.... he made a DEAL!! YAY!! its all sold out... my friends have alreaad assist those remaining customers and its all SOLD OUT!!! hahaha.. ok its morning.. those animals are busying buying furnitures from the nearby 'wood carved' shop..hmmm ahh... such a great day... lets take a rest guys!..see you next time! BYE......and good luck

Construction, All Set To Go

2005-09-05T21:21:00.000+07:00

Well... its time for the CONSTRUCTION TO BEGIN.. GO GO GO

Ok... here it goes.. you two build the roof, you and you paint those remaining unpainted walls.. while i plan this... DAMN drawings.. arrgh.. *sharpens pencil* i guess pencils nowadays SUK... ok ok.. let me get this straight this is no joke.. nah.. its a joke.. haha...This Blog for today is just mainlyfor fun... not yet developed... so.... have fun reading!

So.. i am here to say something about Nature... looks like thisis my home base for a while..
so far.... we have only build the foundations,tilings, and walls.... now its just left the rooftops and we can paint.. the walls.. build the pipe into the main storage pipe.... thats all....

12 Hours Later

AHA! ok GREAT job workers... now its just left with paintings..... and some cleaning.... looks like this new Nature Base is developing soon.. give us a few weeks... we still need to keep in under maintainance... so... guess we are gonna 'open' it next week.. so check it out peeps.. looks like some squirrels and cats are interested in joining us.. you should too... ok..... its night now... about 11:10 P.M. guess those workers are gonna stay over night... *yawn* ok.. see ya guys in the morning.....good night

Next Morning (9:00 A.M.)

Guess we have to skip our breakfast today.. sigh.. we are starving here... ok anyways it should be done... by today.. or tomorrow.. and then another 5 days to get those.. engineers to do some enhancement.... ok... so lets get back to work....

12 hours later

DONE.... all set to go.. we called those.. engineers to come... and looks like our job here is done... well.. we are expecting real huge amount of visitors.. we go raccoons..... birds...and even our stray cats walking.. seems they are enjoying our new site.. thats GREAT!! haha.. ok good luck and *salute*